I try to be strong. Sometimes though I cant handle it. Sometimes I have to remember that Im just a man. A man with feelings . I need to cry , i need to allow sadness . Then I wipe tears away and get back up, and keep going strong.
This was my tragic mistake . thinking if I just loved her enough, was a little stronger or more tolerant, if I was just more patient that she would come around. It only made the abuse worse and her enjoyment of it the more brazen. I was a fool.