Jesus died for you, knowing you might never love Him back. Admit to God you are a sinner. Believe that Jesus is God's Son. Confess your faith in Jesus Christ as your Savior and Lord. Read/study your Bible. Live every day for Jesus Christ. God sent His Son
Don't cry infront of them, please just fight back the tears. Please, just don't let them see me cry. Anxiety in those situations. I know this feeling so well. I hate it. This feeling is the worst. Anxiety causes it.