Feeling trapped quotes
#Mindfulmonday I pondered for a while in considering if I would write about and share my knowledge of toxic relationships domestic violence & abuse... Certainly not your easy monday morning reading... and as I sat I thought Its easy to shy away from the shadows the dark things the topics that we can keep tightly bound & hidden the experiences that still bring shame to the surface if we linger long enough in the depths for them to come. Yet I know healing and freedom are possible so I choose to
I know I would never say this in person but I can't fricking take it anymore everything is so overwhelming and stressful. I play field hockey and the entire team hates me. School is stressful for me and I can't handle my feelings at all its like I'm multiple people and I'm scared of myself and I can't get away from myself I hate it so much is so scary
And somehow I feel this way a lot even though I know how good I am as certain things, but like with gas I pretty much tell them up front you won't be around any longer than 2 months, and I kinda laughed they don't realize even if they last that long like the last long distance relationship I just had four and a half months but I guess that's only because he saw me once maybe twice a month on some money so if you had all that time off together I guess it was pretty much close to two months . So n
That is exactly what happened to our marriage he was so cruel that I eventually got to the point where I was not to be found in the marriage anymore as his silence and selfish ways just pushed me away to were I didn't want to be = away from his side/heart and unable to share my heart and soul with my husband/love which killed the marriage and almost me..... sad really sad......