Because losing someone isn't an occasion or an event. It doesn't just happen once. It happens over and over again. I lose you every time. Every time I'm kept in the dark. Every time I'm outcasted. Every time I have unanswered questions.
My Dad would not want me to cry. I miss you Daddy so much and all the memories of this year and the start of your decline come flooding back and how much you suffered and the horrific nightmare in the ICU!