I picked this quote because I believe that Finny felt like this when he returned to Devon. When he found out Gene was going to leave him to go to war, Finny felt hurt. He felt he wasn't as important to Gene as he thought he was.
But now the dark heavy curtains are staying closed nearly all the time. The only time they open, is when I'm speaking to you (MW). But soon it looks like I will have to order the shutters and padlocks.