AMEN~~ Someday you will! The little things are what make life beautiful and we had many of those. This 'what if' will become a regret because you will never find someone quite like me. You let go of a diamond, good luck collecting rocks!
At the back of the dining room area you could put a wall-to-wall bookcase filled with books. If you don't have that many books you can have a display bookcase where you place nick backs, a few books, some magazine, sculptures etc.