Quranic Art: Kun (‘Be’) Calligraphy in Kufic Script .) is mentioned 11 times in the Quran, often times) in the phrase: "Be and it will [be]", referring to Allah's power to bring anything into existence with a simple command.
Even it hard to understand bad things or situations that happens to us at times, always remember thats just happen for a reason, A Really Good Reasons, either to teach you how to become stronger or to save you from what is bad from you.
Repentance is a beautiful thing. It shows your growing, you acknowledge your actions, you want to change and you are getting stronger in faith. Don't forget that Allah is the most forgiving, most merciful!