I'm literally so tired of being nice to people and going out of my way to make sure they're okay and happy just to get treated like shit. fuck everyone who ive been there for and havent been there for me.
How I feel every day. It's so hard to make myself talk to people around me and fake a smile on my face when in reality I just want to lay in bed in the dark and sleep this feeling away. I know it sounds depressing but it really does suck :/
I am always stuck. I am always stuck between giving people everything because I am dying to create meaningful relationships, and giving them nothing at all because then if they leave at least I'll be left whole